I just need to rant

Ok. I really can't do it anymore. (For this moment of time)
Im totally into this person and I do not know what to do.

Dear Diary,

Yes, I understand that he is busy but waiting for his messages is killing me.
Yes, I understand I am a very very very understanding friend or a partner to not message each other every moment but sometimes I really don't know why but feeling itching all over.
Yes, I understand I hope I could make him happy everyday with some creative texts but I do not wanna be too obvious or let it out so easily because I do not wanna get hurt and I also do not know how people think of me.
Yes, I understand we haven't met each other yet and I can't be so into this person all of a sudden but I just can't help it and I do not know how to face it!

That's why I need to rant. Aaaarggghhhh!!!
It's been a long while to have this kind of issues in myself which is not good for myself.
I mean, Im not gonna put expectations because I totally do not want disappointments.
Seriously, I mean it.

Sometimes I really feel like saying, hey dude, I really like you and hope you like me as well if not please tell me, or else we don't waste each other's time blah blah blah.
But DUH!!! This is so not me! and from the other side of my inner voice will be saying: HELLO!! Do you think you are so attractive to say all these kind of things and what? Why can't it be a simple friendship?! Why must you think until that extend?!

So, ya.

Why relationships always make feelings topsy-turvy or just that I think too much? Take things to seriously?
Put myself to into it? Ah! Its the same, or Whatever!
Especially when are really connected to it and suddenly losing communication again because of a lot of external factors. Life seriously playing hard on us! Over here I mean everybody.
Hate myself stranded in this situation, hate hate hate. But I like this person. Then HOOOOWWWWW?!?!?!

Anyways, just back to normal. Not to think too much. As I always say, I want to let things move smoothly and follow the flow. Do not force something to happen. When this candy is yours, you can have every bite of it. If its not, then just leave it to the ants.

Ok?

But I want it. Ok... Goodnight diary.

Enjoying Life

Dear Diary,

Today was a long day in the office (6/3/2013). We had a full day of meetings.

1st. Event Meeting
2nd. Merchandise Meeting
3rd. Minor Operations Meeting

Something struck my mind when my superior told me this.
"You are a person always seeking a balance in life. For work, you are a person that able to deliver, willing to deliver, but in the same time will want to have the balance to enjoy life as well."

Indeed....a true statement.
From the horoscope point of view (Yes, Im a horoscope freak), Im a Libra. Therefore, continuously seeking for balance in everything is the compulsory task in my life, which can be seen in both positive & negative ways. (laughs)

This actually made me curious about the things that I had done and I went to find out by flipping pictures or phrases that I posted on Facebook & Instagram etc. all whatever social media that I had.
As I look through all the pictures, there are actually a few things that made my life interesting

1st of all, Food.
Seriously I don't even know why I took so many food pictures and I don't really know much about Food.
Honestly, my mum is not a good cook but a simple one. Not superb skills but able to whipped a few dishes for the family and its already good enough.
Therefore, Im easily appreciated by nice dining, especially very nicely presented ones.
 I need to take a picture to recommend, or remember this moment, that I had something good before.

2nd, Travelling
I have a lot of traveling pictures, not only abroad but in my home country as well, wherever I go, I just like to take pictures as remembrance.
I always think that, there will be something to learn from that journey. Whether it's good or bad, it's a learning experience to know more about a different place and a different culture with different people.

3rd Friends
I have many friends. I adore the times to be together with them. No specific ones because I just love everyone and the moment shared.
Some friends are able to pick up my interpretation of the term of "Friends", but some don't.
Too bad for them, and they just need to know the world doesn't work like a manufacturing factory that only does duplications.
So. Ya.

Lastly, Gifts!
Haha! Gifts or souvenirs are my favourite things in the whole wide world. Appreciate their effort and the thought to give you something when your friends or family are at somewhere else. Appreciate it a lot.

There are so many things that I could be happy with and share. I hope everyone around me will be able to see this point, and be happy. Enjoy every single moment in your life...

With love...