5 Qualities I required for Love

Looking for a partner? Who is desperately in love? Or desperately wanting Love?
To me, love is a huge thing. Love is not necessarily man to man (What I meant was "humans", don't get me wrong. Because proper sentence structure don't use "humans" unless you are going to mention Aliens in the sentence), but Love applies on all things.
Of course which means that, Love without boundaries.

So, I was kind of inspired by some Facebook posts, Tumblr pictures and blogposts about relationships. So, ask yourself. What do you want in a relationship?

To be frank and cut the crap, I am gay. I am single and available right now. Not in desperation of love. But I am okay with attention (evil smile). Regardless of loving men or women, Chinese, Malay, Indian, White or Mixed. Anyhow, People have expectations. Although I mentioned earlier, Love without Boundaries but! Expectations for Satisfaction is relevant, isn't it? If a person do not have any expectations, I will find a doctor for you!

Again, what do you want for a relationship? I will share mine, and maybe you can share with me yours too. Not to light up the fire, I have to clarify that this is just a self reflective, creative writing and personal interest post. Every point that I said does not equals to perfection because nobody is perfect and I am not a 2 year old kid. So, what I am sharing is just some qualities that I feel a relationship should have. Haters beware, you can stop reading from the next full stop. Love and Peace. No war.
Here it goes...

First thing goes to Appearance
Hmph, inside your heart will be like: "Bah!! Shallow!"
Hello! *waves at you with both arms* Face the reality! Mankind created the word good and bad, positive and negative, pretty and awful, beautiful and ugly. There are always opposite sides in everything, please finish listening to me first.
Appearance doesn't mean that you need to be perfectly charming, but most importantly presentable. Image is very important in creating impressions to people. This is what I learn in Public Relations Class okay! Even in a relationship, if you want to impress somebody that you fond of, of course you will take good care of your image. Don't you agree? Who doesn't like to see pleasant things? A rubbish dump and a colourful garden. Take your pick!
Be presentable, wear something that shouts your personality, neat and clean, looks nice and smells nice. You got the 1st green light! On the other hand, I don't see plastic surgery is a total bad thing. If it will enhance your confidence in impressing people or self development, go for it. It is a positive thing to yourself. Of course, not excessive, balance is compulsory.
Appearance is the first but ONLY this quality?, that's an ultimate turn off. Let's go to the second bullet.

Secondly, Knowledge. I can say that I am full with ego when it comes to knowledge. This does not mean that I have an Einstein brain but at least I act like I know a lot! *Grins* Partly because I am a Mass-Commer. I get information all around from people and search for evidence myself, then spread around to other people. Men with great knowledge is a huge turn-on for me and I will idolize him totally and automatically covered all his flaws. *Angels Singing* (Exaggerating!)
Knowledge is vital, I don't require PHD or Masters in anything but at least, General Knowledge!! I despise people who are ignorant of what is happening around the world and only live in his/her own life, ranting feelings on Facebook, Twitter or being super LOA (Lack of Attention).
Read the news and get updated! Those are not gossips or busybody, but general knowledge is also an impression not only for your partner, your friends, your bosses, your people around you. This also impresses the people around your partner too! If he can discuss politics with my dad, self-enrichment with my mum, books with my sister, gadgets with my brother and everything with me. *rolls on bed* Screamssss!
But there's an exception. Knowledgeable is not bragging. Bragging just makes me feel like puking.
Knowledge is vital, so how do you convey it? That's the other point.

Third, Communication.
Great communication skills is the next "Must-Haves"! Communication matters. How does he communicate every single message to you? I want somebody that knows how to talk and be friends with my close-ones. But not sitting aside and hands on his gadgets. Who knows he is chatting with somebody behind you? *half-squeezed eyes*
Able to hold a great conversation, chooses the right time to talk, using of correct and appropriate words. I admit that I sucked at warm up lines, but I am very good at continuing it! Unless you turn me off at first.
Enough? Unfortunately, No.

Fourth, Maturity.
Are you matured enough to face every difficulties in life? Life is always a challenge. Nobody is having a great time in this world full of sufferings, even you are born with a silver spoon.In religion studies, life is portrayed as suffering, the end of everything is enlightenment. Since we suffer in everyday life, please do not give me more sufferings with your tears or bimbotic complaints.
I don't want a boyfriend, I want a real man! There is a picture I saw which goes like this:" Every Women are seeking for a  Real man but ended up, she found out she outshone every men!"
In the gay circle, there are a lot of people who claims that they are the man in the relationship but ended up they are just like a kid. I have to emphasize again, I am not seeking for perfect, but at least, not childish.  
Strategic Planner? Crisis Solver? Mastermind? Energized Bunny? Which of the characteristics suits you?

Okay Okay. Last but not least. Love.
We don't love someone who does not love you. Showering love for both is a great pamper for both parties in a relationship. You need to show your concerns, attention to me to show that I am placed at a prominent position in your heart. Love me for me. Love me for who I am. Just like I will love you for who you are. If I am able to fall in love with you, you have passed my checklist.
Love also shows commitment. Are you willing to commit in the relationship? That's a big question. Even we do not want to be over positive to see the future, but be committed to the person and show love. When you see couples that clicked, they will have roses blooming around them which you do not need super powers to see it. It flourishes beautifully just in front of you. This is the power of Love.

Till here, what are your views? Rage or Consent?
I might be seen as foolish to analyze all this. But again. This is just a piece of my work and for personal interest. Don't forget, freedom of speech is widely known in the internet, and most importantly, this is my diary.

Toodles. Great night.

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Dear diary. Just gotta post a random post before sleep. V
Very randomly, I just thought of blogging. So I blogged. Right now.

Updates for now:
Nothing special. Just continue working and working.
Work has shown better results. Very positively and I am still trying my very best to maintain it.
Never thought that things went smoothly and Im impressed by myself too.
Envious of people who buys clothes without any second thought.
Sales is starting on 25/10/2012. Please drop by my store and say hi!
Im still a shopaholic. Cravings are everywhere! Spending money just makes me happy easily!
Like a snap!
So obviously, I gotta earn more.
Mum recommended me a business and I am still reluctant to pursue. How?
I do not know how to start, I do not even want to start.
Negative thoughts are still refraining the positive vibes to come in.
So, what's stopping me? I really don't know.
American dreams next year, I just set this target 24 hours ago by the way.
A lot of places that I still have not visit and wanna visit, especially countries in Asia.

Getting older and crankier. Seems like what happens around is not going my way. (SHIT!)
Thinking that people that are not productive but living in this world, are hopeless. Seriously!
You are wasting the earth's space and time. Go away!
Teenagers nowadays are hopeless too! Please understand your direction, Live it and Be it!
I pray to everything in the enlightened world, please bless my brother's body and soul to be a successful person on everything that he does.
 
No appetite for dinners but keep on eating during lunch
Coffee is my current addiction right now. Its a Viagra for work.
Ice Cream is a de-stress treat.
Snacks are things to fill my stomach during this hour (Which almost applies to everyday, Hahaha!)

Gosh, I feel so old! ROFL...
I don't wanna be some old uncle babbling about things to strangers in the middle of the streets!
SCREAMS!!!!
I need love!

Ohya! Most importantly, Single and available.
Getting more and more ego. Egoism is covered every single part of me.
I hate myself for being like that, but I can't stop it. This is me.
When the walls are up, you gotta try very hard to smash them down.
I don't even know how to do it but my ex did it very well.
Or maybe my walls weren't that stable enough back then. Who knows?
Anyway, Grade A goods are always too pricy to get. All voice down to expectations!
Im always the only frozen rose in the iceberg. (Ewwww!)
Actually I am also very tired of it.

Working overseas is still on my To-Achieive List.
So. 2013? 2014? Shall I proceed? I will be 26 years old! WOW! *flips table*

Again. Another reflective post for the hundred time!
I vomited everytime when I scroll through all my posts again.
Because there are a lot of repetitive (= annoying) text.
For being narcissistic, actually my writing skills improved somehow!

That's all.

K Thanks Bye!

Changed

怎么部落格变了这么多啊？
相隔千日，又时惭悔的时候了。哈哈！

Inspired Much?

Dear Diary,

Its time for me to go back to all of these since I'm so unoccupied right now, these are the ways for me to unleashed my true self without showing any living beings in the world.
Im back on Twitter, I have to be back to my castle. Weibo is my only place where not much people know me there. Facebook is just a stalking machine now. Haha! So....Yup! I shall start to write more to improve my writing skills as well.

So, talking about inspirations. What inspired you in life?
There are a lot of things happened everyday and hundreds of people passing by and do we really care about all these things that goes around us?

What had inspired me these days is my energetic team members in my outlet. the 18 year-old to 20 year-old ones. Just graduated from high school, Preparing for further studies, Young and Fully charged like an Energizer Bunny! Some are overly active, in a positive way, some are a little bit reserved but you still can see the youth vibes around him/her.

Sighs. If I could turn back time.

Really feel Im so.... "experienced" when I'm around them. Listening to new thoughts and do some sharing about my thoughts. Ewwwww! Feel like an old man! OMG! Anyways, I really enjoy being with them because they make me feel young again! Makes me think of the 19 year-old Felix who just stepped into college and started my journey as a Communication Student. Started an independent life miles away from my hometown. Travelling around the world and then now earning life experience and money. Urgh! Don't wanna go through this but we have to!

Dear Young People, enjoy your youth as you will not ever experience all over again. So cherish everything that you been through right now. Either good or bad, they are all lessons and memories that passed by your transition period to be a full grown adult.

As for my turn and for my age, let's talk about Commitments.

So, there are a lot of commitments that I need to commit when I grow older.
Seriously, I need more money!! $$$
In order to gain more, I will need to improve myself, and work harder, prove to myself!
Very inspired by all the passionate direct salesperson who worked so hard to gain strong network and big money!! Haha! Sounds so, Not Me right?! Its reality by the way, HELLO!! So face it people!
Of course, Im not gonna be a passionate direct sales person, to pull you into some direct selling brand or doing some publicity over here. Just that, in this improved and advanced era, a lot of people are introducing multi-level marketing. Look at famous people like Robert Kiosaki, Bill Gates.
Sometimes it is not easy for me to not think of giving it a try. But seriously, to think twice, I really do not have the time to do all the follow ups and discovering new network.
Although everybody says, there is no such thing as Time limitations, as time is managed by our own.
Truly speaking, I have this dream right now to set up a small business of myself. Any ideas, or suggestions?
Just a small business and slowly wait for it to grow.

I really salute my dad because I think he is a successful man. During his 30s, he set up a business with his friends and now he owns the company. Although it's not a big firm or a famous company, but at least this business have fed 5 mouths throughout so many years and its still functioning right now.
Where does his courage comes from? Where did he gain all the trust from?
 My trip to Thailand was also very inspiring. Inspired by the young fashion designers that creates their own brand and apparel. Inspired by all the unique and quirky cafes that runs by their own which only available in certain areas. Inspired by a 19-year-old girl and her sister who owns a blogshop which I can see passion and hardwork in it.

Therefore, Im inspired. There are a lot of young entrepreneurs in the market right now and it's very inspiring when you see them shining above you. Yes, I want to be one of them! I want to shine like a star too. I do not want to listen to instructions and I want to instruct others!

Inspirations are precious. I will start now to collect all the bits and bites of things that Im inspired of and make my dreams come true!

Discovering Colours in Bangkok, Thailand

Time to blog about my Bangkok trip traveling with one of my colleagues.

Its an evening flight departing from Malaysia to Bangkok. We reached there around 8pm and the airport was congested. From the arriving gate to the baggage claim walk was 15 minutes plus. I guess it's because I flew with a budget airline. As I remembered the day when I drop by Bangkok on the way flying to United States, I don't need to walk so far away to reach the customs. The customs were packed with people, so after passing through and claiming our baggage, it's already around 8:30pm.
When we walked out to the arriving hall, quickly we bought a local SIM card for our mobile phones in case of emergency and calling back home. It's only 130 baht for the basic calling package I think. I forgot the exact price but it's very affordable and good enough for a normal mobile phone user like me (who ONLY make calls and SMSes)

So we quickly go to the train station. Its an Airport Railway Link to the city train stations. Similar to our KLIA Express train, all the train services is fast, user friendly and convenient. When we reached the main station in the city, we took a transit train to another station which is nearby our hostel.

The hostel we stayed in was recommended by my colleague's friend. Its called WE Bangkok. The hostel is quite easy to access, and the service was not bad. Although we got lost for a while, but we still manage to explore through the small allies and reached there safe and sound. The allies were extremely quiet at night and there were only a pack of stray dogs laying around on the roads. From Chong Non Si station to the hostel is only 10 minutes distance by walking. But I can't imagine if I was traveling alone during that hour.

The environment of the hostel is clean and comfy. Very suitable for backpackers or travelers who has a limited traveling budget. We chose the 8 bed dorm and per night was only 310 baht which is RM31.00 only.
Travelers staying in the hotel were friendly. People that I talked to were from Japan, Brazil, Australia, Canada, Germany, US, England, Austria, Ireland. That's a lot right?! So happy to meet these people, even though it's just a short chat, but at least I know there are different kinds of people in the world who are holding the same dream and passion as me.

After settling down, we went out for supper. To Silom street from the hostel is not far away. Walking distance is only 15 minutes. The street is very happening where you can absolutely feel the night is still young as it's one of the busiest streets in Bangkok. There was a street of market stalls selling a range of clothes, decorations, jewelries, accessories and also pornography and sex toys along the street, there were also convenient stores and cafes. Between blocks of shop houses, there were pubs, massage parlour and bars where you can enjoy the night. As my colleague has a weak tummy, and food poisoning is quite popular around my friends' experience, therefore we do not wanna simply buy food from the hawkers. We went in to a noodle shop where they serve all kinds of noodles cooked in different styles. Not bad, delicious and we went there continuously for 3 times when we were lazy to figure out where to fill our tummy.

Day 1 - Luxurious Shopping Day
We went to the central area to feel the classy, posh vibes from the exclusive shopping malls around. Siam Paragon, Siam Center, Central World, MBK, Platinum Fashion Mall are all very near to each other and you can get everything over here. If you are looking for high end or high street branded stuff, Siam Paragon & Central World have loads of prominent brands from all around the world. Gucci, LV, Chanel, Burberry, Cath Kidston, Loewe, Vivienne Westwood, Zara, Ben Sherman, of course Topshop Topman!!! and more... 
MBK and Platinum Fashion Mall is a bomb!! Fashionistas who wants affordable fashion pieces and create your unique outfit that shouts out your personality, you can go there and find it on your own. A lot of Blogshops also get their source of goods from these places. They have wholesale price and the more you purchase, the cheaper you get. Quality wise, it's not that bad either. Girls beware, Let me tell you. A day is seriously NOT ENOUGH! We start off the day with a relaxing American breakfast at After You Cafe, then shopping and back to the hostel at night.

Day 2 - Weekend Market Day
Chatuchak Weekend Market is a very famous weekend market that a lot of travelers mentioned of. I was stunned when I stood on the pedestrian bridge and looked down to the market. Its like rows of longhouses that we see in Sarawak and there are so many of them! I really do not know where should I start my shopping JOURNEY. Yes literally! Our start of the Journey for the day was a quick meal in a small store that serves authentic Thai dishes. Yummy! I had fried papaya and mango salad. So appetizing and refreshing in a hot afternoon. Then start off from a lot of house deco, to clothes, bags and shoes, and then clothes, bags and shoes, and then more clothes, more bags and more shoes, and clothes, bags and shoes, and then clothes. bags and shoes again. Haha! Anyway, its a great place to get cheap stuff as well. What I love most was a street that sells local fashion designers' merchandise. Its a very hippy, very young and fashionable street. I found most of my treasures there!!

Day 3 - Chilling Day!
Well, its a Sunday anyway, So, we haven't figured out what to do for the day, but chilling in the hostel for half of the day. Then we went to Lumpini Park around afternoon. Breathe some fresh air, Hug a tree and feed some fishes in the pond. We went for a massage at night and end the day comfortably! =)

Day 4 - Be a Tourist Day!
We visited temples and mostly tourist attractions for today. We went to the Grand Palace, then some temples afterthat. We traveled by the river taxi today and it's 150 baht for the whole day. We visited the The Reclining Buddha and Temple of Dawn. Sitting at the Buddha hall was peaceful and serene. I climbed up on top of the Temple of Dawn. The steep stairs were very very scary for a height-phobic person like me! But I made it! YAY! The river taxi was a different experience. But remember do not go the wrong way and always wait for the boat that goes to the direction you are going. The funniest part for the day was we bought a pair of slouchy trousers for ourselves and act like a tourist. Although we ARE a tourist but then, I always admired all the ang-mohs looked so good when they were in those trousers. I bought a elephant printed one. Haha! It's cute and I also found my coconut ice-cream served in a coconut shell! Awww! Delighted!

Day 5 - Pattaya Trip
Today we ordered a day trip in the hostel and join the Pattaya Day Trip. Beaches are my all time favourite places to visit! So we woke up early in the morning and reached there around 11am. We took a boat to the Coral Island and stayed there until 3pm. We also visited a Gem Discovery Centre to see how the gem industry works and how they produce them. Ahhh~ I just love the sun and sea! There were lots of tourists as well. So packed!

Day 6 - Last shopping day
I went out alone and get all the stuff that I planned to buy while I was surveying few days before. So I went back to the central area and did my last shopping. Seriously, I spent quite a big sum of money on shopping already and I was struggling alone when making choices! OMGGGG~~~ It is very fun to walk alone as you do not need to care anyone else but only yourself. When I am hungry I eat, when I feel like shopping, I walked non-stop, when I feel like resting, I sit down, when I feel like going home, I go ahead. Freedom and privacy is always my top priority in life. Sigh, I should just be alone forever! Haha!
So on the way back to the hostel, I discovered a small street and before I walked in, I swore I will not come out with an additional shopping bag. But sadly, I broke the promise. I bought another pair of shoes. DARN!

Bangkok, is tourist friendly, is irresistible, is sinful, is colourful. Thailand is a third world country same as us. We are all still on the way developing and I feel Bangkok has more freedom than us. Thailand had changed a lot and I was afraid to visit initially as I worried of the communication barriers but I was totally wrong. As a tourist place like Bangkok, almost everyone knows how to speak English and I do not have any problems at all. In the market, there are even people that speaks mandarin.

For fun and shopping, I will definitely visit again! Bangkok, you made me feel beautiful!

离开我

再听一次 《离开我》.

你会不会好一点？
想了很久，我做了这个决定。我觉得是好的，对我们彼此都好。

不知道... 可是我觉得，你会很开心。
可能我这样说，是有自私以及霸道的成分在，但是打从心底，我真的觉得你会好一点。

也有可能是我对自己没有信心吧~

不管怎样。我祝福你。
我也希望你可以搞好你的生活，让它规划一点，规律一点。
而且，不要再轻易说爱。

因为，不确定就别亲吻，感情很容易毁了一个人。
我希望你会更加珍惜下一个投入你怀里的人。

我呢，就要好好的继续走下去，不一定要寻找另一个王子。
不过，我要寻找我人生的幸福。

就告于段落。谢谢你....

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